words, words, words

by t.a. faust

i can't find the words
to explain my stupid thoughts
not that it would help

elaboration?
i wish that were an option
even i don't know

how can i tell you?
how can i bring myself to?
you are more than i

greater than, less than
where do i fit in this mess?
not where i'd like to

wrong people, right parts
i'm giving myself away
some deserve, some don't

who can clarify,
give me answers, not questions?
my necessity.

utterly helpless
this corporal form is limp
my shapeless 'body'

i see a blank screen
filling my blind inner eye
visions of nothing

now i'm just hiding
behind imagination
a dry, shallow grave

it's time for some change
grow a pair, spread my damn wings!
make a difference